Another day another not being pregnant

I know, I moan. Every day a new person announces that they are pregnant and every day is another reminder I am not.

 

Two of my cousins have six month old girls and another cousin is pregnant. My sister’s best friend has announced her fourth pregnancy

 

Its not the whole having a baby thing, if I thought it was I might start having a discussion with my partner about fostering or adopting, but its the being pregnant I want. The feeling of being kicked, even the morning sickness and mine was brutal.

I wish I could enjoy my friends and family being pregnant without this pang of jealousy, its not the right way to live a life, being envious of what someone else has and I hate that that is the way I am now living life.

I think facebook does make it worse has well, because trending is someone I have never heard of having a baby and that is daily that someone who is “famous” is pregnant or has had a baby.

I just want to scream but its my turn. Me I want a baby, I want to become pregnant, me. Someone* get me up the damn duff

 

*by someone I mean my partner.

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13 Responses to Another day another not being pregnant

  1. mentalbreakinprogress says:

    I can relate to this…my facebook is baby overload lol. I have had times where I felt like I should be having one just because everyone else is or at least so I could have an excuse for weight gain 😉 lol I’m leaving it up to fate and in the meantime living life comfortably…also…when I crunch the numbers….a baby doesn’t really fit the budget right now but maybe someday. Anyhooo, you feel anyway you want about it. You’re human and you’re allowed 🙂 ❤

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  2. koolaidmoms says:

    I would sob every Christmas because Mary could miraculously get pregnant so obviously my faith wasn’t strong enough. I would cru seeing 15-16 year old girls dragging their babies down the road by one arm. Mother’s Day was the worst. I understand.

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  3. amommasview says:

    Keeping my fingers crossed for you…

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  4. bipolarfirst says:

    I’m so sorry. This is such a tough feeling. It is like there is an emptiness and it just becomes unbearable. I think the jealousy is perfectly natural. When you are holding all of those immense unwieldy emotions and you see other people with want you want…how can it not be a terribly unwelcome reminder of what you are so desperately wanting and needing but cannot have…yet…
    I know you didn’t ask for advice but I say let yourself be jealous without judging yourself for it. You are allowed to feel like that. As long as you are being kind you can feel what you feel, ya know.

    I hope this happens soon for you. Hug

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  5. Hahaa I absolutely loved that last see but. I totally agree with you about the being pregnant thing. . U want to feel ur child grow inside u, and be able to give birth to him or her…

    I don’t even have my fb open anymore. I think the feeling of being annoyed/jealous/angry is totally normal. I just smile and nod while silently cursing them for being so darned happy 🙂

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  6. Bit..not but. My autocorrect

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