For those that are new readers, one of the reasons I went off the deep end into insanity was due to a miscarriage, since then we have been trying for nearly 3 years to get pregnant again. It just hasn’t happened for us.
However that doesn’t stop other people getting pregnant, having babies and announcing how happy they are.
Since my miscarriage, I have had countless friends and relatives announce their pregnancy and had babies.
I would of thought that after 3 years the pain would lessen, but it doesn’t. Or at least it hasn’t for me, my cousin recently had a baby and I still felt the same stab of jealousy and the same pain that once again it wasn’t me.
I find it amusing that I get told I am not showing how happy I am. Well I am not happy that someone else has gotten pregnant, and had a baby, it takes me a lot of effort just to say congratulations, I am not going to wax lyric about it.