Boo

I must admit I am not in a great place, and I have missed blogging, but the fact is doing anything is hard and most of my energy is being spent looking after my son.

 

My anxiety is sky high, making doing anything difficult. Sleeping is not happening, well not at night anyway, I am napping where I can, but it does mean, that its all a bit shit, even my house project is on hold.

I will say the fact I am not sleeping, probably has a direct link to my depression getting worse. Not sleeping makes everything worse. I have so many great ideas I want to do and I just can’t do any of it,

It makes me sad that 5 years ago, I was a functioning human being with a great future and now, I am just wasting my life, and I am finding it impossible to get any help, from the medical community.

Its very much, you are not sick enough to be helped, but you are too sick to do anything. Its putting a lot of pressure on all my relationships and its a struggle.

I don’t know what the answer is, I wish I did. I wish I could take a magic pill and start all over again, well I say all over, I mean maybe the last 3 years. I wouldn’t change things like my son for the world and he is what is keeping me going.

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15 Responses to Boo

  1. Tony Burgess says:

    Hang in there my friend, I know life can get tricky sometimes. You got this, with help from others.

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  2. hawkhamilton says:

    Wish you well and hope its not too long before you’re back on the up side. 🙂

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  3. amommasview says:

    Hang in there. We are all here for you in the way we can!

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  4. KraftedKhaos says:

    Please do not tell yourself that you are wasting your life… even within the emotional place you currently find yourself, you are raising your son, and the emotional experience you are going through may be something that you will be able to use later, further down your life’s path, possibly to help someone else.

    I hope that you find your emotional footing soon… in the meantime, keep writing, keep expressing, keep moving forward.

    This too shall pass.

    *sending peaceful and joyful energy*

    Be well,

    Amanda

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  5. Keep going! Sending you tons of hugs from this side of the world! x

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  6. I’m sorry to hear about this! Xx

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