I am going to say right now, I am what is known as an advertisers wet dream, I am not sure how it works in my head, whether I am just generally susceptible to advertising, whether it has something to do with bipolar or the addictivness I seem to have, which also seems to be a sympton of the bipolar.
So on day 1 nothing seemed to change, apart from the conversation I initiated with a random stranger. I had to thank her while she waited for me to put my dog on the lead. Maybe, the manners my parents installed in me overrided my anxiety. My friend C said this is unlikey, I am assuming she meant my anxiety is so bad nothing is going to override it, rather than I have no manners.
Day 2, which was Saturday, I went into town to deliver my partner’s phone to him. I find its difficult to yell at him when he doesn’t have his phone 😉
Normally I wouldn’t go into town during December, I avoid it at the best of times, but November and December are no go areas.
Day 3, Sunday, we had my stepson round and we went to a new softplay area. I actually felt alright, it was weird.
I started this with pointing out how susceptible I am to advertising, literally something will come on the TV, the best polish in the world, and I am sitting there trying to buy it, double glazing, I want to buy it (I live in a rented house and have double glazing) getting a bigger penis, yep trying to buy (I am a woman) so I do wonder how susceptible I am to the placibo effect, in all the other drugs I have tried, its been the same they work from the off and then wear off after 2 weeks.
Lets hope that doesn’t happen this time, but 2 weeks is when we will see if they are working or not.