Yeah, can say these are doing nothing for either my anxiety or depression. I had to go out. I took my son to school, dog for a walk and then sat down, tried to figure if I could get away with not going into town.
The answer was no, my stomach was tight and I thought I was going to throw up, I could barely breath and my heart was going to burst through my chest, in an alien like fashion.
I tried to calm myself down but nothing was working. In the end I did the only sensible thing I could and crawled back to bed and hugged my dog till I fell asleep.
When I woke up, it was gone 12, so now the debate in my own head, do the housework, go to town, but it was lunchtime, so even more crowded, could it wait till later? The problem was I had run out of dog food and the dog was hungry, he had a smaller than usual breakfast, so really needed feeding. If it was just for me, I would of gone fuck it and starved. However the dog relies on me to do the right thing.
I picked myself (over an hour later) and managed to get into town, get the dog food and get straight back home, only to lock myself in my house never to leave again.