Mind dump

I am not enjoying life at the moment, I can say with absolout certainity that if it was not for monkey then I would not be here.

I hate feeling like this, and these pills, all they are doing is knocking me out, I don’t like them, they make me feel so angry. I haven’t been able to do what I want because I am struggling to get motivated, I have so much to do and yet unable to.

I just want to be alone at the moment, but people will keep messaging me. I am struggling to keep the anger in and I don’t want it to come out.

I am angry at everything and everyone, things keep going wrong for me and then I patch it up and keep going forward, but it doesn’t help in the long run. Its like putting a plaster on a gunshot wound.

I write to keep me sane, too get it all out and so I don’t do anything, my words are just that words, but shit it feels good getting it out.

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22 Responses to Mind dump

  1. Then keep writing it out. Whatever helps, continue doing. 😊

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  2. Cyranny says:

    So sorry to read this. Drop a note when you do feel like talking. I will not message you in the meanwhile… I don’t want to irritate you more than you already are 😦

    xx

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  3. Rowan says:

    I was in a similar place the other day and a friend sent me a link to this video (from Monty Python’s “Life of Brian”). He knows my sense of humor, so it worked a bit for me…offering it here just in case it offers you a bit of “morbid relief” as well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WlBiLNN1NhQ

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  4. I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. I can definitely relate. I am glad you have something to keep you here though. You would be greatly missed.

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  5. missschade says:

    I guess I have never been in your place, but people around me struggle, too. I have learnt there isn’t much I can do, but listen and keep staying at there sides (especially when yelled at). I hope things will become better for you. Without knowing you for real you seem like an awfully kind and interesting person β™₯️

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  6. Sounds like a difficult situation. Like shaking a bottle of Pepsi so much that it’s is about to explode, but releasing the pressure by turning the top will end up with a volcano. Somehow you need to unfizz the fizz.

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  7. manyofus1980 says:

    so sorry hun. sure does feel good getting it out doesn’t it? xxx

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