I hate these days

The way we have been doing the school run is that my partner (I really should give him a better nickname) will either do the drop off or the collection, depending on what he is working.

There have been the odd few days like tomorrow, when his work start him at 9am and finish at 3.30pm

Meaning he can do neither, we have had the conversation about just leaving monkey at school till four and hoping he is ok, but that is frowned upon, as is dumping the poor lad in the playground at 8.15 in the morning.

This means, I have to do it, which results in nights like this when I just stare at the clock ticking down, till I fall asleep with a knot in my stomach.

As I have explained in a previous post the actual doing doesn’t seem to be a problem, but the come down and the leading back up is and on these days I spend all but about half an hour in a constant anxious mode.

No matter how many times I try and tell myself it will be alright, it is still a nightmare. I keep being promised it will get better, maybe if they told me I would win the lottery and once that happened I would start to believe them about my anxiety getting better.

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11 Responses to I hate these days

  1. dray0308 says:

    Reblogged this on Dream Big, Dream Often.

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  2. joyroses13 says:

    I am sorry about how rough it is for you. I don’t know if I had shared before but my daughter suffers wirh a lot of anxiety. I can understand some and sending a (((hug)))

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  3. fakeflamenco says:

    sorry you feel so anxious, hope you find a distraction (silly walk anyone?) ; ) R

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  4. I have days like this honestly I hope it gets better for you soon! You are doing really well to push yourself to do it even if you don’t want to! That’s a positive in itself!!

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  5. Carol Anne says:

    Be proud of yourself! Your doing it despite the anxiety! That’s a great achievement!

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