I am not sure what is wrong with me at the moment, whether I am ill, whether my anxiety is ramping up, or something else.
I am panicking, it was a struggle to get Monkey to school, I am really struggling to get things done, just a little motivation, which help.
I am panicking about Christmas, how we are going to afford it all. The only thing on this, is we have gotten the main presents for everyone from us and one from Santa.
So it might not be the Christmas Monkey (or I) wants, he has something to open from Santa and from us. I would still like to get him more, but bills and food are more important and tbh next year we will be in a better financial situation, hopefully won’t have to move and will have paid off a few more debts, and will be able to save a little bit a month so I can keep that in mind.
But when you have anxiety, very very very very very often the smallest thing gets blown out of all proportion and I think that is what is happening.