I disappeared for a little bit, I needed a bit of a break, my laptop has broken and no one could fix it over the holidays.
I wanted to spend Christmas with monkey and my partner with no real worries.
Lets start by me saying Merry Christmas and Happy new year to you all.
I had high hopes that this year was going to be the year I get back into work, I felt like I was getting stronger. My brain had other ideas.
I woke up in a massive panic this morning, so much so I went back to bed. Its just after 5pm here and I am still highly strung and really really anxious. I am struggling and there has been no real trigger for it, when I get like this there is little that I can do.
I really didn’t want to start my New year like this.
Other than this we have had a great Christmas and New Year was very chilled. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.