The reason why the title has a question mark is for once, I am not sure. One of my signs of showing I am going downhill is because I don’t want to cook, this is why we have a fuck it freezer drawer. It contains fishfingers, chips, nuggets, simple easy food, that monkey will eat.
Even that has been an effort, but I also know, I am struggling in general trying to get motivation, I still feel like I am not down down, but also not steady.
I have meetings with various mental health people the rest of the week, so I am hoping, those are going to help, especially if I can talk it all out and figure out what is bugging me.
Its probably the fact that I still don’t have any money and my washing machine has gone the way of the dodo. Hopefully I will find some sort of positive, but at the moment, I am just looking at my bank account and thinking 30 years ago I could of bought some stuff for £2.75, now I can buy half a penny sweet 😉