Trying to prob deep

Posted on February 20, 2019 by itsgoodtobecrazysometimes

I am trying to figure out what is going on with me, as it stands, everything is where it should be, financially, relationship, family and friends.

To be honest this is probably the happiest I should be in months, and yet I am not. I can’t figure it out and it could be down to the simple fact that for so long, I have relied on the fact I am pissed off and anger has carried me through for so long.

If I am going to be honest I feel a little lost, I don’t have the passion to write, I am literally writing to mark the time of day, I am writing nothing of note and yet so much is going on in the world.

I just wish I could pinpoint what is going on with me, its not a nice feeling

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19 Responses to Trying to prob deep

  1. Cyranny says:
    February 20, 2019 at 12:56 am

    I think you might have found the answer, or at least part of it… After a long fight, when you finally reach your goal, it is normal to feel kind of lost. You no longer have that challenge to keep you going, and even if it means that your life is better than it was just recently, there’s something missing… I hope you’ll find the way to just enjoy the fruit of all your labor soon! You earned to live happy, peaceful days, until Life throws new lemons your way. xx

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  2. BeckiesMentalMess.wordpress.com says:
    February 20, 2019 at 1:18 am

    I couldn’t agree with Cyranny more. The lost feeling is like a void, but that void will soon pass. in the meantime, enjoy the peace for as long as you can. 💗

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  3. V says:
    February 20, 2019 at 1:23 am

    The problem with the human condition is that nothing necessarily has to be wrong, sometimes this just happens. All you can do is keep going, keep trying and keep on keeping on. Sooner or later the clouds will clear! Believe me, you’ll figure this out. ❤

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  4. Sparkyjen says:
    February 20, 2019 at 11:51 pm

    I think this sentence may tell you something about why you are feeling the way you are feeling right now: “I have relied on the fact I am pissed off and anger has carried me through for so long.” Eek! You have relied on feeling pissed off and angry for so long, feeling anything else is foreign, out of place, downright icky. When will the “other shoe” drop so you can get back to feeling pissed off and angry again? It’s got to drop. I know it will. This ‘happy’ feeling can’t last…or can it? You’ve had little practice feeling anything but pissed off and angry. Now you have a choice. My question is, what will you do with it? Hopefully, allow it to take hold for a change!

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  5. Carol Anne says:
    June 5, 2019 at 4:45 am

    Its a horrible feeling. I know it all too well. It sucks. xo 🙂

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