Have hit the wall

I am so tired of fighting to be strong and not go downhill. I woke up this morning just to a pit of depression.

It is such a struggle to keep fighting my own brain, I am trying to stay positive and calm. I suppose the only positive I can find is I am angry, while that doesn’t sound like a positive, I have always found it is better to feel something than nothing. So I shall take anger

But all I really want to do is curl up in bed and not move out of it, I won’t though. I shall try and get on with my day and use that anger to propel me into doing my little jobs.

But I worry, if I feel like this now, then there is nothing to stop me feeling like this when I have a job, if I am trying to find excuses to not pick monkey up, its going to be a hell of a lot easier to not go into work.

Anyway, that is me at the moment, writing it down, makes it better, just got to keep talking

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4 Responses to Have hit the wall

  1. fakeflamenco says:

    Hope tomorrow is better, Trina! Take care. -Rebecca

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Carol Anne says:

    hope you start to feel better really soon! Sending love to you! xo

    Liked by 1 person

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