I am so tired of fighting to be strong and not go downhill. I woke up this morning just to a pit of depression.
It is such a struggle to keep fighting my own brain, I am trying to stay positive and calm. I suppose the only positive I can find is I am angry, while that doesn’t sound like a positive, I have always found it is better to feel something than nothing. So I shall take anger
But all I really want to do is curl up in bed and not move out of it, I won’t though. I shall try and get on with my day and use that anger to propel me into doing my little jobs.
But I worry, if I feel like this now, then there is nothing to stop me feeling like this when I have a job, if I am trying to find excuses to not pick monkey up, its going to be a hell of a lot easier to not go into work.
Anyway, that is me at the moment, writing it down, makes it better, just got to keep talking