I stopped posting apart for my links which are scheduled.
I would say I am sorry, but I am not, I think those that follow me, realise that with mental health sometimes you can just stop for a while, as you regroup.
The problem is I haven’t. Regrouped I mean, I am have followed the rabbit down the dark hole and its not great.
I missed a doctor’s appointment on Wednesday because I couldn’t go, its not like I didn’t want to go its because my anxiety has gotten so bad, my depression has come back with a vengeance.
Missing it has actually made my anxiety worse. Added to that, monkey is away for the weekend, which just adds to my anxiety, he left a while ago and on the one hand he really didn’t seemed bothered that he wasn’t going to be seeing me for a couple of days, but on the other, he really didn’t seemed bothered that he wasn’t going to be seeing me for a couple of days. Kid can’t win.
I am struggling and admitting it is a good sign but opening up to medical professionals is better and that is my next step.