I got my days mixed up, so a bit of a bugger. I have my mental health appointment tomorrow not today.
And I have to go pick up Monkey today, now while I really don’t want to leave my flat its actually ok, as he has an after school club and finishes an hour later than normal, meaning that it wont be as busy at the school, so hopefully I can just about handle that.
I am still not looking forward to it and just seem to be counting down the minutes till I need to leave. Which in turn is spiking my anxiety.
I am really hating this, I just want to live my life without my heart being in my throat most the time.
I am desperate to be “normal” and not have to live like this anymore. I honestly thought I was starting to get better and have just gone downhill so fast over the last couple of weeks.
I wish I had a magic pill, just something that would make this better.
Till that happens, I will keep putting one foot in front of the other and going on.