I had an appointment with a mental health person today. I woke up and my first thought was I can not do this.
I was so close to emailing and saying I was sick, I didn’t. I managed to go It was horrible, I really hated every second of being away from my flat.
I came home and just wanted to sleep, instead I had a bit of a clean up of the flat, cleared more lego, played with the animals.
Then went and collected Monkey.
As soon as we got home, I was so exhausted I could barely keep my eyes open, I know its not from lack of sleep, this is much different, my whole body feels tired.
But I had my monkey with me and it was actually a fun ride back. Although I am starting to feel it now.
I did it, that is the good thing, but do I keep on pushing myself to doing it, when to be honest the easiest answer is just to refuse to move.