How I know I am not quite there yet

Yesterday Monkey had his disco, this involved picking him, getting home, hanging round for an hour, going back to the school and then myself and my partner going to a pub.

Why? Because the length of the disco means, that by the time, we drop him home, wait for a bus, get on the bus, get home, we would have to leave again, wait for the bus, get back to the school and pick him up, so its not worth it, instead we go to the pub for a drink. However this year because he is juniors now, it finishes later and while we were prepared for that, what we were not prepared for was the fact the buses were late, we hung around for 10 minutes (buses are every ten minutes) then made our way to the next bus stop, then to the next and the next.

By this time we were all hungry and we were not going to be before half eight, so we stopped off in town and got something to eat.

I would imagine for most people, this would be an fun evening out, but by the time I got home, I was exhausted, lay down on the sofa and slept. I woke up at half four this morning and thought fuck it, no point trying to sleep. Of course a few hours later I am regretting this decision.

However, this seems to happen if I ever do something out of my routine, I find myself so mentally exhausted I need to rest and I am not sure how to break this cycle, is it something that will get better the more I do it?

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4 Responses to How I know I am not quite there yet

  1. Carol Anne says:

    I don’t know, but I would hope the answer is yes! xoxo

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  2. KDKH says:

    You did a great job of supporting your son! Now if only we can figure out how you can support him without such a cost for you.

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