In case I hadn’t explained this, I am scheduling a lot of these posts. I am trying to write as and when, but since I have no idea when I am going to get time to actually write, I am trying to stick to my usual schedule and just writing when I can.
Today I am really struggling, I am debating whether to go and shelter in my bedroom or whether to finish painting the bathroom.
Half of my mind is going paint the bathroom, the other half is telling me to fuck off.
Last night I made a video to put online somewhere, watched it back and just thought nop, that is not going to happen, I was mainly ranting, but it felt good to get it out.
Today is a shitty day, in a shitty time, in a fucked up world, and its ok to say that and its ok to say I am struggling today, I am going to get dressed and then if I do nothing else thats ok, I did something and that is a good thing.