Today I was expecting a benefit payment (child tax credits) which I needed desperatly to pay rent and bills, I usually get £200 I got £18 and no one can explain why.
To be honest this was the straw that broke the camels back and I burst into tears when I was trying to sort it out, they still don’t know what has happened, nothing has changed, there is no reason as to why it has gone down. I have filled out form after form today, sent things, emailed people just to get this sorted.
It took me most the morning and it wasn’t resolved by the time I picked my son up, they couldn’t even tell me what I was getting next month either. So I have no idea what is going on.
I have always tried to look on the bright side of life, but losing yet more money from our benefits is just another blow and another way of looking like this government really do not give a shit.
I can completely see why people are committing suicide when losing their PIP or any benefit, if it hadn’t been for my family and friends bailing us out so many times, we would of gone under months ago. The only reason why I managed to hold on at all today was because I have a shrink appt, where I took most my anger and despair out and also chatted to C for most the day thinking of things I could do