After yesterdays experience, I am still recovering.
After I typed out my last post, I felt exhausted, it took so much out of me.
Even today I am still feeling really worn down.
Its difficult to try and explain how tiring something as simple as going to shops makes me. I just want to curl up in a ball, if I was by myself that would be easy, but the small child has other ideas.
In a sense this is a good thing, because it means that he is still oblivious to my mental health problems.
I was chatting to a friend the other day, who is going through a bit of a rough time, possibly on the road to depression, I advised her to go to her doctors. She gave me a few excuses as to why.
My harsh but fair point was that I didn’t go to the doctors for years, and because of that (and a few other things) my son is probably never going to have, what is considered a normal childhood.
There is a good chance, that at some point I will be better, but certain parts of my mental health problems are always going to be with me, although hopefully medication will ease a lot of the problems.
As for today. I will try and keep as active as I can, but all I really want to do is curl up on the sofa and sleep.
Have your time to curl up and just be if you can, if only for a little while. I’m glad to see you back here a bit.
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Thank you. Small Child, wants to play lots, at the moment I have convinced him to have a bath. He has a stack of toys and I can have a few minutes listening to him singing while curled up and thank you, will probably take me a while to get back into the swing of things
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You’re most welcome. Take your time.
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It is so difficult to live life when struggling with mental illness. There are no easy answers. Just do the best you can and prioritize what is important to you.
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I wish there was a very easy answer, would make life a lot easier. We have taken today easy, lots of games, building of forts and snuggling up watching tv.
Hopefully should be able to spend tomorrow curled up while he is in school
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I always tell people to have a safety plan, so that if things are sliding out of control, someone else is also mindful and knows when to step in. I am not sure if that is applicable to you. Since many of my patients need to be hospitalized, it is important to know when a situation is spiraling and when to get help.
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I think I have gotten to the point, to go back to the doctors now. My partner knows my different moods, so I can tell he is worried. I think part of it though, for us, is that when you are dealing with it, your perception of what is normal gets a bit blury
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I will write more to you later. If your partner is worried, that is a sign that you have a problem. My line in the sand is if your moods are interfering with your capacity to live, love and learn. Please take care. 💕
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I will do and thank you 🙂
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exercise, as you know, is best. even a walk around the block. sunlight. endorphines. good luck on this difficult journey. and, as someone else said, immersing yourself in the beauty of nature changes brain chemistry.
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I do try and get out as much as I can, but for me personally just leaving the house, presents a challenge
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The ups and downs are inevitable. Keeping hope and honoring the process of recovery can be healing in itself. Sending positive vibes your way!
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Thank you
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I get it. If only I could curl up and Netflix all day.
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I would love to be able to do that sometimes
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Your so brave, and a lot stronger than your probably think, Fighting with your own mind daily is exhausting! I’m a strong believer that the more we talk the more we help others.
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Thank you and I agree talking helps
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Sorry you’re struggling. Do you reward yourself when you do hard stuff? Chocolate?
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I tend to just want to sleep whenever I do anything hard
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